since the start of the new year I’ve been a bit down. I was on the back side of a wonderful two weeks holiday at home and the last thing I was ready for was moving away again. I’d just gotten used to how nice and convenient life in america was again. I wasn’t ready to be ripped away from those I love most and found myself feeling homesick for one of the first times in my life. I’ve always been this way about change though. even when I love both places more than I can describe, it’s the getting me to the other that I struggle with, making my move back to Paris was no easy one and me a pile of tears for days at the slightest mention of it.
I spent the better part of my first week back in denial. mainly because it was like I was living in an alternate reality with the members of downton abbey (my new favorite obsession). with 18 episodes under my belt after five days and the remaining 7 watched since, there wasn’t any time for much else so it was almost like the week didn’t happen at all. (it’s been rainy and in the 40’s and I was super jet lagged so I don’t feel like I missed out on too much. but I frustratingly couldn’t quite shake my funk.)
after a wonderful weekend in the city I am feeling much more like myself and I am so thankful to be back. so in a way I suppose today marks the start of my 2013. I am looking forward to opening my mind and heart to so many new things abroad and am so thankful to have seven more months of this unforgettable opportunity.