I used to watch my sister kissing her boyfriends on our front stoop. We have a large window in the play room and I would move the chair in front of it so I could peer outside. From the inside looking out I thought myself invisible. Well, when you are face-squished against the glass, breathing fog on windows that aren't so tinted, you are undoubtedly, very visible. If ever the two of them looked up I would jerk back and fake like I was engulfed in my tv watching. It was genius--or so I thought. Apparently they knew my tricks all along and when their senior yearbook ad came out, part of it read, is that Chrissy in the window?? I had become the joke amongst her friends, which leads me to wonder, what were Lauren's intentions all along? Why did my sister do to me the things she did? Why would I squeeze my butt real tight so her friends could poke it and feel how hard it was? Why did I know every word to Boys II Men, "I'll make love to you" and Coneheads "Tainted Love" and make dance videos of them? Of course a younger sister is willing to be the puppet, trained by her older and wiser sister, because she thinks she will make her cooler. I'm just beginning to wonder if chubby little Christina was taken advantage of. Lauren...do you have any confessions?