a mere two months ago on a walk around my neighborhood with a friend, I gushed about my past year’s romance. I told her I never thought it was possible to be loved as much as at that moment I felt loved.
that simple truth I was certain of.
over the past few days I realized how naive my grasp on love is. yes, I believe whole heartedly that I was in love with a boy that would move mountains for me.
but you see, despite his desires he lacks the strength.
the man whom my heart needs right now has it. he works miracles with an unbelievable amount of humility and grace. he is the only one who understands my deeply complicated ways.
he is love.
and as I bowed before him with a heavy heart I knew what had to be done. I had to end the familiarity of my tangible love.
it was time to stop being so selfish. it was time to radiate his joy again. it was time to make him my priority.
and sitting on a curb with frequent passerby's I poured my heart. I was shaking the whole time and am certain the man fighting for me spoke the words it was difficult for me to find.
I surrendered and was captivated by an overwhelming resurgence.
today I felt peace. today I felt love. today I felt God.
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